Liberté , Freiheit and Freedom

2009-05-07T22:11:00.000-07:00

2009-05-07T20:31:00.000-07:00

HELLO :D

hmm recently I listened to a song from Syazie's MP4 :D

and yes, I really really like it :D

really really ^^

It's Three Cheers for Five Years by Mayday Parade :D

despite having drums and guitars in it, it's stuck in my head :D

though I can't really feel the song

due to my real pathetic love life that is haha.

well I never really had one to begin with

aww, that's sad haha

I'm crushing though..

ahh let's end this mushy talk :D

I thought I could live in your arms
And spend every moment I had with you
Stay up all night with the stars

ahh never fails to melt me :D

I'm starting on my revisions in approximately 30 minutes

plenty of time to talk :D

ok let's see.. ouh yes, have I told you about MONKEY ?

MONKEY is NICE :D

besides being cute, well not exactly tall, friendly and sweet :D

and MONKEY is always at LOT 1:D

which is good isn't it ?

'cause I'm always there too studying with SYAZ :D

then I can see MONKEY and MONKEY, well maybe, see me too :D

ahh, MONKEY :D

MONKEY makes me feel HAPPY :D

MONKEY :D !!!

Ignore the incoherent paragraph above.

hmm I shall end abruptly here,

oh yes not forgetting,

just changed :D

dancing-daffodils@hotmail.com

2009-04-28T03:54:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone.

well if there is anyone reading

I had my HMT P1 ytd, and I thought it went quite well.

Except for the part some unknown being

pinched my neck when I was doing my compo ..

well I got over it I guess

I went to IMM after that to eat dinner at Bagus with Ameer

That would be our last dinner untill after exams..

oh well, I then bought strawberry roll as they were PINK

yes, it caught my eye :D

ever since I saw it in BPP

" Kalau tak sedap then how ? "

If not nice then how ?

" It's pink. Anything pink taste good "

*Ameer shakes head *

then I bus-ed to my house bus stop

and Ameer bus-ed to MRT station.

Reached home at about 8 or was it 7 45 ?

showered and slept at 8 40.

I guess this is the only part of Monday worth posting.

ps. I used your foolscap >.<

2009-04-25T19:36:00.000-07:00

Vois Sur Ton Chemin

Vois sur ton chemin
Look upon your path

Gamins oubliés égarés

Young boys lost and forgotten
Donne leur la main

Give them a hand
Pour les mener

To bring them
Vers d'autres lendemains

Toward other tomorrows

Sens au coeur de la nuit

Feel in the heart of the night
L'onde d'espoir

The wave of hope
Ardeur de la vie

Ardor of life
Sentier de gloire

Pathway of glory

Bonheurs enfantins

Joys of childhood
Trop vite oubliés effacés

Too quickly forgotten, erased
Une lumière dorée brille sans fin

An everlasting golden light shines
Tout au bout du chemin

at the other end of the path

Sens au coeur de la nuit

Feel in the heart of the night
L'onde d'espoir

The wave of hope
Ardeur de la vie

Ardor of life
Sentier de gloire

Pathway of glory

2009-04-24T05:08:00.000-07:00

OMEE-G ! *wails in exaggerated manner*

Yue Yu's sick !! * wails in exaggerated manner yet again*

Get well soon, then we can continue singing Big Bang songs during recess.

Maybe a picture of G-Dragon will make her feel better :D

Yue Yu, I was wrong; He's SUPER CUTE :DDD

maybe I just don't like guys with

but still, I want Seungri ^^

hmm I showered once I reached home

around 1 30 or was it 2?

Then I switched on the TV; yes finally after the donkey years :D

Ameer went for prayers and didn't sms me

He didn't sms me as it would be rude to do so I guess.

so I fell asleep.

I fell into a deep sleep and dreamt of the field from Pushing Daisies

guess it was because I watched Pushing Daisies online recently

yes, the blue sky, flowers and everything

sadly Lee Pace wasn't there haha :D

oh well, just a dream....

shall end abruptly here though I have a lot of things on my mind,

Au Revoir.

2009-04-23T05:00:00.000-07:00

Once again, you've made me look silly on the bus -.-

I'm currently listening to What about now by Daughtry.

Though I really don't like loud guitars and drums,

it's nice :D

It's one of those songs that actually have a meaning,

similarly with The Fray's How to save a life.

Songs of this age don't seem to be meaningful anymore,

just noise and everyone says " ahh, that's cool "

Depends on how you perceive it then.

2009-04-21T02:57:00.000-07:00

DISCLAIMER

This is going to be a tad vulgar

and does not, in any way, reflect who I am

I'm in the state of anger, frustration

and possibly on the brink of going crazy.

Hence, I might not think before posting

yes, you've got it, this post is RAW !

Here's the situation now,

I'm FUCKING PISSED OFF

and yes, I mean it.

I've met many horrible people from 14 years of living,

not to mention names, but at this moment,

I therefore conclude, I've met the worst.

Why, is it my God forsaken fate ?

oh, for fuck's sake, I can't take a moment more

how about the 1 year and 8 months then?

that's seriously spells out some fucking endurance !

I could stand nothing more than

a fucking condemning, fucking manipulating and yes,

OVERLY FUCKING SENSITIVE person.

You guessed it, I met one in 4 months.

Using my weakness and stuffing my ears with,

" oh you don't know one " yes, it gets on my nerves.

___ amazing abilities to change black to white or even yellow,

which is way way far from black at the spectrum,

is just fucking SUPERB !

and __ mouth have some sort of that fucking blutooth thing that can easily

send pictures,songs,folders,contact information and such,

well in this case, __ already modified story,

to many other blutooth mouths in the world, well the level I guess.

Gosh, she reminds me so much of Golgi Apparatus.

Modifying substances then secretes them in form of vesicles.

ahhh __'s in my cells, nnnnooooo !!

What a HOLY part of the cell to represent___ !

Being OVERLY SENSITIVE adds to the trouble as well.

This leads me in having uneccessary insecuritites

" Did I offend __? Why is __ so quiet today? "

I might ask myself this but as of today,

NO MORE.

Hell, fuck that all.

Did I mention anything about exaggration?

Well, let me say it now :D

A friend Hi-5 me , like always

and __ had to say , " They were holding hands "

I'm not, in any way, interested in my gender.

I like manly man with sprouting chest hair ONLY

Well, I shall end this post with brighter memories,

YUE YU !! :DDD

green represents Yue Yu BEST as she's always very horny :D

I've grown rather fond of Fauxhawk

yes, that's Orlando Bloom

Scream girls, SCREAM !

2009-04-17T06:08:00.000-07:00

This image is posted here for Zu :D

I think Daesung is monkey-ishly CUTE !

Yesterday's Economics lesson was THE BEST ever.

Best lesson in weeks.

Best lesson in months.

The proposal presentation by

MingLun and Bokhua's group was GREAT

especially during the 5 min Q&A session

well actually it took more than that

Here's the highlight of it

well cant remember exactly but somehow it's like this :D

Harsha said that their target audience, which is everyone,

isn't appropriate for their drink stall selling cold drinks

as the elderly, which is counted as a part of everyone,

can't drink cold drinks.

so the debate progresses on untill,

Bokhua : " My ah-ma got go sweet talk ok "

Harsha : " well, mine doesn't "

That's super hilarious :D

There was a few minutes on ah mas and sweet talk

which was rather irrelavant but extremely entertaining

Then when the whole this is about to end,

Harsha had to ask,

" Why does your ah ma go to sweet talk ? "

yes, another uproar from the crowd.

and yes, the recent Mr Chen's math lesson was fun too

we played who wants to be a millionare with maths

Work out the qns and raise the coloured strip with the correct answer

Ben got crazy and made a criss cross pattern with the strips

and yes, we did became a millionare

ps. we and a, we won a million together

Today had HMT orals,

let's not talk about that

Went to BPP with allisa to get donuts :D

then we reliased the donuts weren't worth the buy

so we went to FAIR PRICE :D

walked for 30 mins there and she got a small packet of Lays

SUPER LOL :D

sat outside McD's drinking bubble tea and eating Lays

we talked quite a lot about things

then walked around for a while before taking 176 home

at the bus stop we saw THINGS

a little younger we thought but SUPER

angmoh barangkali

angmoh perhaps

continue talking on the bus

and finally Au Revoir :D

Though it was just a short trip, it was fun and of course amusing at times

allisa's laughters are extremely contagious haha

I have 2 days till Monday, hope I survive :D

Shall end though I have a lot of things in mind,

Au Revoir :D

ps. ________ got 6-packs, We knew it !!

2009-04-15T08:19:00.000-07:00

No matter how busy I am, I still have time for you

My Newfound Lover, SEUNG RI :D

ahh darling, you look good today ^^

Today was normal

except for the fire drill where Momo screamed like 0_0

Had CCA with Ken, making Alumni Committee Cheatsheet

so we don't die ? *laughs*

" Marissa tengah buat ape ? "

" buat bodoh "

" wait, was that malay ? "

haha sure is.

reading that text for summary did make me think a bit

just a tiny little bit.

well, we have to preserve our language and culture for

the future generations to come don't we?

Though I'm not malay, well not malay-malay-malay

I still feel that I should do my part in preserving the language I learnt since P1 ?

but then again, I'm uncomfortable speaking Malay

oh well, should have taken Tamil :D

It's 12 already and I'm going to sleep for abt 2 hrs before waking up again :D

Au Revoir :D

ps. Infinite solitude, how tranquil ..

2009-04-14T02:48:00.000-07:00

Bang, Bang BANG !

It's BIG BANG :D

OMEE-G, this is love

especially this one,

cause I his specs ?

and he looks good with it :D

From now, I declare I like guys with Seung Ri's spec ^^

yes, you guessed it, this is my most recent crush

I think he's the most good looking among them :D

* retracts when I said the whole band's not good looking *

Seung Ri with specs again :D

ahhh kawaii ne !

wait, he's korean -___-

I'm in love with this guy :D

Shall just end abruptly here,

Au Revoir

ps. I'm in love with this guy :D

2009-04-11T22:08:00.000-07:00

A very akward email

* Click to enlarge

oh god, I hate that word

I decided to open my junk mail for no apparent reason today

and guess what I found inside

A penis enlargement advertistment

That's ULTRA JUNK !

With my ultra shocked+disgusted face,

I imed Ameer and guess what,

he got it too -______-

I guess its because we always subscribe to the same things ?

but I don't have a ..

I would like to take this opportunity to thank MSN

for having a JUNK filter :D

oh well, let's just drop this

oh well, let's just drop that

I think Big Bang is very cool

though I don't like kor/jap music previously

" cause I very ' ang moh ' de " lol Edmund

as I prefer listening to classical English music

" cause I very ' ang moh ' de " haha !

Back to Big Bang !

Yueyu influenced me to it :D

cause she's Clarisse McClellan, influential

*trying to get F451 into my life in my efforts to FALL IN LOVE WITH IT*

My current favourite would have to be Haru Haru :D

*currrent favourite as there would be more to come

I like the piano intro and how it progress to something lively

Though I prefer English bands and singers,

" cause I very ' ang moh ' de "

Big Bang kindda GRABBED me :D

I do agree that there is more guys to oogle on at SUJU

yes, KIBUM :DDD

but still I like Big Bang for their music

I'm trying to influence Ameer to Big Bang now

but it seems to be quite impossible cause he hates Jap/Kor music

" Mcm faham what they singing "

Like you understand what they singing

oh well, shall end abruptly here

Au Revoir :D

2009-04-11T00:26:00.000-07:00

I love it when we walk together you're always beside me

I love it when you laugh

I love it when I receive sms and it's from you :D

I love it when you call me at 2 am to wake me up for study time

I love it when I call you when I get scared studying alone

I love it when I put you on loudspeaker

I love it when you teach me math over the phone

I love it when you eat 2 Mc Spicy in a row with no sweat :D

I love it when you told me not to be scared in the cinema

I love it when you call me ' angmoh tak jadi '

I love it when you still waited for me at the bus stop for almost an hour

I love it when you get bored and sms me :D

but most of all,

I really love it that you're my friend and that I've found you :D

I shan't use the term 'anniversary' cause it would have sounded that we're married

and it reeks of 'lianness' *laughs*

You know who you are, and yes I love our one year friendship :D

I can't thank you enough for being there

shall end here abruptly

ps. I'm overjoyed today :D

2009-04-08T23:06:00.000-07:00

I hate Mats.

no offence intended, just really disgusted.

Maybe sometime I'll talk about this unplesant incident

rather inappropriate now because I'm in a

utter shock+disgusted+horrified state.

2009-04-08T19:12:00.000-07:00

This is going to be an emo post

I'm reminded of someone today

I took 10 mins to type that out

and I left it for 3 hrs

by now I've forgotten what I wanted to say

oh well I'm not emo,

I'm HYPER !

and today I'm going to talk about something equally as HYPER

WE THE KINGS !

ok I hear some of you screaming by now

yes, I love them too (:

eventhough I hate guitars and drums and all those electric things

For those 90 year old grannies reading my blog,

let me post a picture of WE THE KINGS ! for you

ok ok, stop screaming already.

Marissa : " aaaahhhhhhhhhhhh ! "

Ms Phua's lesson on varying tone is important after all

I hate men with long hair

WE THE KINGS just " aaaahhhhhhhhhhhh ! " me :D

and yes, I would like to dedicate this part of my post to YUEYU

cause I missed her so much not coming to school yesterday

I miss Kin Hiong's eyebrow movements too

and T-R-A-C-Y 's screams

and Xiu Hiong's constant quarells which always seems cute to me

and Syazana's random expressions

and Hui Yan's unfading smile

and Atiqah's giggle which I find rather amusing

and of course, Daniyal

BECAUSE HE SITS NEXT TO ME

don't you miss the person who sits next to you if he's not in school ?

and because he's nice too

I've heard rumours and of course they are not true

because I don't like HAIRY people .

I find the like like rumours amusing and silly now

unlike in primary school where MAYBE

someone cried because of it,

just someone .

oh well, * skips the catastrophic chapters of primary school *

there's a lot of things I missed on wednesday

but I shall continue about Yueyu's BIG BANG

BIG BANG she's crazy over it

Eat BIG BANG, sleep BIG BANG, talk BIG BANG, breathe BIG BANG

since she's a highly influential person,

LIKE CLARISSE

I listened to BIG BANG This Love last night

and yes, I dare say, SUPER GOOD.

yes, Yueyu led me to the correct path !

As you might have realised, I've just put up a BLOGSONG

Sixteen going on Seventeen from The Sound of Music

I like songs with a classical touch :D

Listen to it, it's catchy especially the ' going on' parts haha

Sixteen going on Seventeen

Rolf
You wait, little girl, on an empty stage
For fate to turn the light on
Your life, little girl, is an empty page
That men will want to write on

Liesl
To write on

Rolf
You are sixteen going on seventeen
Baby, it's time to think
Better beware, be canny and careful
Baby, you're on the brink

You are sixteen going on seventeen
Fellows will fall in line
Eager young lads and rogues and cads
Will offer you food and wine

Totally unprepared are you
To face a world of men
Timid and shy and scared are you
Of things beyond your ken

You need someone older an wiser
Telling you what to do
I am seventeen going on eighteen
I'll take care of you

Liesl
I am sixteen going on seventeen
I know that I'm naive
Fellows I meet may tell me I'm sweet
And willingly I believe

I am sixteen going on seventeen
Innocent as a rose
Bachelor dandies, drinkers of brandies
What do I know of those

Totally unprepared am I
To face a world of men
Timid and shy and scared am I
Of things beyond my ken

I need someone older and wiser
Telling me what to do
You are seventeen going on eighteen
I'll depend on you

I'm always left melted at the end of it :D

2009-04-08T16:14:00.000-07:00

*Marissa Signs in MSN*

Starts conver with Ameer

" Ameer you have fever ? "

" No where got "

" Then why are you at home ?"

" yesterday you told me tak skolah what "

" Today my school elearning -________- "

" eh shit alamak, nasib dah mandi I naik cab lah "

LAUGH MY ASS OUT !

2009-04-04T19:27:00.000-07:00

maybe I should say sorry .

2009-04-03T02:08:00.000-07:00

Nevershoutnever - Happy

try listening to it ^^

2009-04-03T01:33:00.000-07:00

I just watched it, again ^^

I really want the DVD !!

I like it that he's pale and cold

ANG MOH TAK JADI !

2009-04-02T03:24:00.000-07:00

Ang Moh tak jadi means well actually I don't really know

someone who maybe is ang moh-like but not ang moh originally

Ameer calls me that -____-

I detest speaking malay

sometimes I find it rather inpolite the way some people speak malay

for instance,

" Ape Siol "

no it's not ape (as in xx) it ah-pe

and it si-ool, try dragging the o

and yes, congratulations you made it

it means something like " What Seh " in our normal Singlish

which I don't really use too cause I find it common and yes, very broken

Another thing I hate about speaking Malay is how you address people

all of these means I and you

Aku - Kau

Saya - Kamu this is for exams I guess *laughs*

Kita - Awak

Firstly I find Aku and Kau very rude

For instance,

" Marissa KAU tengah buat ape ? "

What are you doing Marissa ?

I'd be stunned for a moment

I never use AKU as well in my group of friends

thus we use Kita and Awak

or we use the Gue and Lo of the indonesians

~~ Syazana *laughs*

so instead of saying KAU, we say,

" Marissa awak tengah buat ape ?"

What are you doing Marissa ?

which to me is much more polite and gentle.

Despite so, I do believe Malay is a beautiful language

just like French, German and other languages.

It is what that makes Malay people very unique

and feel rooted to their culture and race.

Bahasa Melayu also unifies the different subcultures and dialects,

similarly to English

though I don't have the SAS to prove it *laughs*

Teaching Malay,Chinese and Tamil in schools

is a good way to preserve the local identity.

However, for people like me who do not have a definite race,

it is quite hard to learn something we don't feel connected to.

Hence, I do not speak Malay that often

I guess it's just not me *laughs*

It's alright then, I'll rid of it after Os ^^

So Ameer, am I still

Ang Moh tak jadi ?

Edward Cullen tak jadi !!

" Stunted Edward Cullen ! "

2009-03-30T11:27:00.000-07:00

It's 2 30 am now

I just woke up for my lit project ^^

Edward Cullen is the only contact online haha

2009-03-29T00:55:00.000-07:00

I'm sorry, really I am

2009-03-28T23:18:00.000-07:00

"I don't have the strength to stay away from you"

ahh Edward !

2009-03-28T19:24:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday Ameer, my friend who thinks he is a vampire !
yes, you're 15 now haha not 17 yet
The twilight bug bit him as well
It has been about a year I've known you now
and yes, I feel blessed to have known someone like you (:
You've been a really great friend and yes, I really love you
not THAT love, just love ^^
I'm in a really good mood today so yeah, I love everyone

even that 67 year old pervert next door

ps. I don't have a 67 year old pervert next door
Watching twilight with you got me feeling 17 as well
but yeah, dedicating this song to us ^^

Happy Birthday Edward Cullen ^^
Though you'll never look like him in a million years xD

Seventeen Forever - Metro Station

You are young and so am I
And this is wrong
But who am I to judge?
You feel like heaven when we touch
I love this line , love it love it love it !

I guess for me this is enough

We're one mistake from being together
But let's not ask why it's not right
You won't be seventeen forever
And we can get away with this tonight

You are young and I was scared
You're wise beyond your years
But I don't care
And I can feel your heartbeat
You know exactly where to take me

We're one mistake from being together
But let's not ask why it's not right
You won't be seventeen forever
And we can get away with this tonight

"Will you remember me?"
You ask me as I leave
"Remember what I said?"
Oh, how could I
Oh, how could I forget?

We're one mistake from being together
But let's not ask why it's not right
You won't be seventeen forever
And we can get away with this tonight

And we can get away with this tonight

And we can get away with this tonight

I wished Edward was mine

really really wished he was ):

2009-03-27T03:15:00.000-07:00

This week went by extremely fast

and yes, I haven't been posting

I don't have to enumerate my reasons do I ? *laughs*

Since I can't remember what happened for the whole week

Let's just talk about things I can remember (:

The Blouse Button Incident

I was walking home from the bus stop yesterday

and yes, my unusual habbit of playing with my shirt button

It finally gave way, as in it came off

I held my blouse tightly and rushed home

It was embrassing as I was playing

with the second button from the top

The Unknown Guy from Maldives

Recently, some guy added me on MSN

I don't really minded that as that's how I make friends

He said he's from Maldives, 29 and working at one of the resorts there

but who knows he might be a 67 year old pervert next door

I found him quite alright at first

but then, when he IM-ed me for the second time

he started calling me DEAR

yes, DEAR to a stranger

and I got even more sure that he

is a 67 year old pervert next door

I really got pissed when he called me DEAR

so I blocked him

and yes, deleting him off upon completing this post

To come to think of it, it's rather silly

calling someone halfway across the globe

DEAR, isn't it ?

Now, I'm even more sure

he is a 67 year old pervert next door

ps. I don't have a a 67 year old pervert next door, I think

Animainia and RDI guy <3

I felt really guilty going

but we didn't won anything in the end

Let's not care about that

yes, The RDI guy

I can't really tell you what RDI stands for

hint : It's a school

I can't really say this here

ps. Indian, yes, I like !!

Went there with Xinxing and Mui Jie

Someone kept going to the toilet

so we asked him to tie it >.<

but of course, he didn't

or did he ?

*laughs*

Daniyal's obscene photo

The green heading says it all

I realised it's too obscene to be posted

He did told me who _ __ was

yes, I wished I ________ just now

but no, I had to be civilised

yes, I'm civilised

I shan't do that

so I simply ignored - __

though I heard everything she said

oh well ..

Peppermint Green Tea

After eating naked fish express

with LYY and Yimin

I went to sweet talk to get green tea

to rid of the oily feeling at the back of my throat

But said peppermint green tea out of daze

it gave me the minty feeling

plus the ice and the tea taste

I found it painfully nice to finish

well it did taste nice at a certain point of time

oh well..

My recent breakdown

I don't really want to say this here

and yes, I'm not a very good liar

so it was quite obvious

I hope it goes away soon

without a mark

though it is rather long but thankfully not deep

I got back to my sense faster this time

Though I still have a lot of things in mind now,

but I shall end abruptly here

till a week later or so,

I'm starting to gear up for the mid year

Au Revoir

2009-03-18T19:16:00.000-07:00

Changed the gossips to Scream!
cause its in the middle and it made me
seem as though I gossip a lot *laughs*
no, there isn't a hot bod future honey
or is there? haha ^^

Kelly Clarkson - My life would suck without you

Guess this means you’re sorry
You’re standing at my door
Guess this means you take back
What you said before
Like how much you wanted
Anyone but me
Said you’d never come back
But here you are again
Cuz we belong together now
Forever united here somehow
You got a piece of me
And honestly
My life would suck without you
Maybe I was stupid for telling you goodbye
Maybe I was wrong for tryin’ to pick a fight
I know that I’ve got issues
But you’re pretty messed up too
Anyway, I found out I’m nothing without you
Cuz we belong together now
Forever united here somehow
You got a piece of me
And honestly
My life would suck without you
Being with you is so dysfunctional
I really shouldn’t miss you, but I can’t let go
Oh yeah
Cuz we belong together now
Forever united here somehow
You got a piece of me
And honestly
My life would suck without you

It's stuck in my head
though I don't really have someone

in particular that my life would suck without,

in general, without the people you love around you

as in my family and friends and crazy Ameer

I said I didn't want to 'friend' him yesterday haha

so he isn't my friend yet, again ^^

My life would have sucked (:

I shall end abruptly with this mushy paragraph

ps. " I don't want to friend you anymore " is ultra-childish but I like it and don't mean it most of the time haha

2009-03-15T22:41:00.000-07:00

Why do you degrade yourself so much

when I'm dying for you to know me

You're 3/4 of all the things I say in a day

I don't understand, well maybe I can't

Are you that lonely ?

I'd be the friend that's always there for you

ps. sadly, he's a stranger again

never ending string of strangers, it's never gonna work

2009-03-14T00:58:00.000-07:00

" U broke my heart " haha yeah you did, maybe my eyeballs too

I'm grounded for the holidays due to my EMath grade
yes, you deserve this Marissa
oh well, let's not get too sad about that
I've prepared well enough for next week
I bought Casco's Mathematics Tutor 3A
as recommended by Yue Yu ^^
borrowed French phrases for dummies
and last-isn't the least though,
William Hazlitt's On Pleasure Of Hating
Interesting title I must say

Went to BB polyclinic to accompany Yimin
after the sports carnival on Friday
Polyclinic's fee is way-seriously,
cheaper than private clinics
Yimin's consultation fee was only $4.80
while mine would usually cost around $18
and her eye drops costed only 70 cents
plus she got a 1 week excuse from PT
$5.50 for all that, wow ?
Polyclinic is as efficient too
plus, the doctors are friendly

" See, even the printer don't like you " *laughs*
His printer got spoiled printing Yimin's excuse form

ps. The doctors looked cute wearing face masks

We then went to West Mall,
I don't really like that place though
lunch-ed at Burger King.
It was Yue Yu and Yimin's first time at BK
ate some burger I can't seem to recall now
BK reminded me of that dinner at IMM
and the dream, yes that one >.<
Sent them back to MRT station and went home.

Adrita's my official diet partner
yes, we're losing weight together.
I really hope I don't gain weight during the holidays
I read once in an article;
French ladies do not get fat as they eat in small portions
Scrapping my 2 rice day a week plan
though it was quite manageable..
Downsizing my portions instead
I usually eat half a plate of rice,
maybe now I'll eat a quarter
I do feel insecure about my weight, very insecure.

My phone's been taken away too
till further notice I guess ):
I shall end abruptly here
though I still have many things to say,
Au Revoir

ps. Ameer, don't spam my phone !

pss. I slept with my calculator last night, forgot what I was counting though

The lost March envelope !

2009-03-08T03:42:00.000-07:00

yes, I am going to die if anyone reads it.
I lost my March envelope
well in case you don't know
I write letters to myself and keep it in an envelope
I lost the March envelope.
I can't remember where I put it
If someone reads it, ahhhhh !!
It's all of me in it
In each letter I write
Now I lost all 3 of them
darn,darn,darn !

I've been listening to
E lucevan le stelle
recently and yes, it's good as usual

E lucevan le stelle

E lucevan le stelle,
And the stars were shining,

e olezzava la terra
and the earth smelled sweet,

stridea l'uscio dell'orto
the garden gate scraped,

e un passo sfiorava la rena.
and a step brushed the sand.

Entrava ella fragrante,
She came in, fragrant,

mi cadea fra le braccia.
and fell into my arms.

O dolci baci, o languide carezze,
Oh! sweet kisses, oh! languid caresses,

mentr'io fremente le belle forme disciogliea dai veli!
while I, trembling, released her lovely features from their veils!

Svanì per sempre il sogno mio d'amore.
My dream of love has vanished forever.
I love this line (:

L'ora è fuggita, e muoio disperato!
The moment is gone, and I die in despair!

E non ho amato mai tanto la vita!
And I never have loved life so much!

I wished I was her and he was still alive,
singing this to me (:

2009-03-06T20:55:00.000-08:00

Ambiguity

2009-03-03T00:54:00.000-08:00

Pacify my soul
My infinite solidarity has successfully driven me to the state of apathy

I'm immensely burdened by common test results
oh well time to listen to my favourite song (:

Nessun Dorma

"Nessun dorma! Nessun dorma! Tu pure, o Principessa, nella tua fredda stanza, guardi le stelle che tremano d'amore, e di speranza!"

"None shall sleep! None shall sleep! Even you, O Princess, in your cold bedroom, watch the stars that tremble with love and with hope!"

"Ma il mio mistero è chiuso in me; il nome mio nessun saprà! No, No! Sulla tua bocca lo dirò quando la luce splenderà!"

"But my secret is hidden within me; none will know my name! No, no! On your mouth I will say it when the light shines!"

"Ed il mio bacio scioglierà il silenzio che ti fa mia!"

"And my kiss will dissolve the silence that makes you mine!"
This line never fails to melt me ^^

"Il nome suo nessun saprà... E noi dovrem, ahimè, morir, morir!"

"No one will know his name... and we will have to, alas, die, die!"

"Dilegua, o notte! Tramontate, stelle! Tramontate, stelle! All'alba vincerò! Vincerò! Vincerò!"

"Vanish, o night! Set, stars! Set, stars! At daybreak I shall win! I shall win! I shall win!"

Calaf was so certain of his victory, that he was going to marry Princess Turandot.
I wished I was too.
God, I love this ^^

2009-02-27T04:35:00.000-08:00

I'm too tired to post, maybe tomorrow

2009-02-26T06:11:00.000-08:00

This post is about my Econs CT just now.
I would be boring for a long long while

I drew 2 lines on the diagram
1 DD 1 SS
I had an E1 and a P1 to P2
The diagram I drew had violated the theory of demand
Px goes up QtyDD goes down
but in this case,
Px goes up QtyDD goes up as well
Refering to the text, although the price of coffee had increased by 10%
there are still consumers demanding for it
I infer from that that the consumers had regraded coffee as a necessity
thus, the increase in price did not affect QtyDD

I'm feeling much better
my answer might be wrong though ..

Zaki

2009-02-25T00:15:00.000-08:00

Recently, I met Zaki at the bus stop on my way home
He's very tall now with the same hairstyle
He's a primary school friend of mine
We exchanged numbers and we've been sms-ing since then
Though I wasn't that close with him in primary school,
I felt as if I had been his good friend for years in just a few days
He's very random ? yeah random
" ..and a good wife and three children(1 boy 2 girls or all girls) in the future "
but it's kindda cute though
Who would have guessed he was such a charmer
He made me blush, smiling to noddy all night

" Relax lah. Ur not smiling alone.Ur smiling with me "
A charmer, I'm sure of that.

I really need to study for Biology and Econs now
Kindda tiring though ..
but nevermind, last day CT
Ganbatte !

I flunged maths, again
well no surprise, am I right ?

2009-02-24T01:05:00.000-08:00

10 Things I wish to tell you

1) I haven't been well
2) I miss the Yo's
3) I want a Yo's REUNITE
4) Ameer keep making me laugh on the bus alone
5) Ameer is mad
6) Ameer is honey
no I don't mean it that way, there was a joke about it
7) I need to study math and lit
8) I have to see the old creepy doctor tomorrow
9) My back is bugging me
10) Wish me the best of luck for Math and Elit (:

ps. The way XX eat scares me a lot
pss. LJS quite oily, or maybe I'm the weird one
psss. Common Test will be over soon
pssss. Tomorrow's visit to the doctor's would be time consuming
psssss. I MUST get good grades for BIO
pssssss. I switched my phone off so ******* cannot call me (:
psssssss. I really need to go now
pssssssss. I barely took 5 minutes to do this ^^

Honey sounds mushy .

2009-02-20T23:40:00.000-08:00

" Their horny glazed chicken very nice,"'
" What, horny ? "
" eh, I meant honey .. "
" honey sounds so mushy "
" honey, honey, honey .. "
" huh ? "
" random, hah "

a very random conversation
The only interesting part of the day.

I'm Back !!

2009-02-20T01:23:00.000-08:00

It's FRIDAY and yes, I'm back
maybe better but not bigger
** refer to the banner outside our school
Since I've been away for quite sometime now
I'll post some pictures at the end (:

Using the broken pen from last week's study day
I'm using an extremely fantastic pen
which was said to be broken but actually still quite usable
I think it can last me for the common test week
that refill is 1.85, considering the quality, it's worth every cent
You get what you pay for, well not always

Been to Hatebook quite frequently these past few days
maybe you might see my post (:
Thanks Corny for the great recommendation
I guess I have nothing else to say
shall end abruptly here
Not forgetting the promise I made at line 5,
here are the pictures (:

Atiqah looking very pretty

Atiqah again looking pretty haha

This is Syazana actually .

The Lunchbox adventures !!

Zombie !!

Syazana, censored ..

Where's Atiqah ?
ps. It's best that I'm not seen

Atiqah MIA-ing again
ps. I've low self esteem, don't mock me .

Pontianak with short hair

Hey that's us !

Busy momo ..

The extremely cute 3T2 chairman

2009-02-15T02:17:00.000-08:00

Feeling free yet stupid
How worse can it get ?

2009-02-11T05:53:00.000-08:00

I can't feel a thing right now

2009-02-10T02:18:00.002-08:00

I've been busy these few days
and since I'm not going to have anymore free time
I'm wishing you all a Happy Valentines Day .. NOT !
Firstly, I have never celebrated Valentines Day
I can see you laughing behind your ugly big old chunky PC screen
and yes, I don't have any ' love life ' or whatever you call it
in fact, I don't even have a life
I haven't watched TV for sometime now
and yes, I have salt in my wallet !
ok get back , where was I ?
yah, Valentine's Day .
Maybe it's a day for all lovers to appreciate each other ?
but don't they everyday ? haha THEY DON'T .
Maybe it's a message for the singles
" Lame Loser Sucker Whatever " quoted from Babat
haha but I can't be bothered really..
cause I hardly have time for myself
and yes, my econs file is protruding out of my table
I shall end abruptly here,
sometimes I wished I wasn't this lonely though
but yeah, misery loves company ..

ps. I tried listening to the Misery loves company you sent me
Give up, I'm not normal !

pss. Hui Yan will have her best Vday this year

psss. Nessun Dorma

Nessun Dorma

Tu pure, o, Principessa,
nella tua fredda stanza,
guardi le stelle
che tremano d'amore
e di speranza.
Ma il mio mistero è chiuso in me,
il nome mio nessun saprà!
No, no, sulla tua bocca lo dirò
quando la luce splenderà!
Ed il mio bacio scioglierà il silenzio
che ti fa mia!
(Il nome suo nessun saprà!...
e noi dovrem, ahime, morir!)
Dilegua, o notte!
Tramontate, stelle!
Tramontate, stelle!
All'alba vincerò!
vincerò, vincerò!

Translation

Nobody shall sleep!
Nobody shall sleep!
Even you, o Princess,
in your cold room,
watch the stars,
that tremble with love and with hope.
But my secret is hidden within me,
my name no one shall know...
No!...No!...
On your mouth I will tell it when the light shines.
And my kiss will dissolve the silence that makes you mine!...
(No one will know his name and we must, alas, die.)
Vanish, o night!
Set, stars! Set, stars!
At dawn, I will win! I will win! I will win!

haha I pissed you off .

2009-02-06T02:08:00.000-08:00

I wished I wasn't this lonely

2009-01-31T06:11:00.000-08:00

1- I won't say I'm not angry, because I still am
2- I lied, it did hurt me
3- Maybe you won't read this
4- I'm not over it actually
5- I only pretend to be
6- Like I always do
7- I want to make you regret
8- I've yet to get it, but soon
9- Only then, I'll find my happiness
10- and maybe, hopefully, put you behind

Numbering the things you say helps a lot
My mind feels a lot sorted out now ^^

I would like to buy a damnburger !

2009-01-31T05:31:00.000-08:00

It's FRIDAY !

2009-01-30T02:43:00.000-08:00

It's friday and yes, time for a proper post !
E lit was like normal
ps. Hui Yan, Er***'s in my lit class
then it was HMT ? yeah, The Highlight of the Day
we were finding our HMT class then we went to some MP
and then we saw _____ .
yes, _____ .
It's so ________ .
I feel ________ right now
Something tells me I won't ____those eyes too soon

haha yes, fill in the blanks .

I can't remember the rest of the day
but I remember the trip to the doctor's
It might not be a normal backache
so I was give a bunch of pills
and I might have to go for injection
INJECTION !!

Skipped meeting
and of course, I skipped rundie again
Like my Mama said,
" Once you're in, they're never letting you out "
I'm not a single shit scared
so yeah, it's fine ?
haha I guess so ^^

I shall end abruptly here
not like anyone reads it ..

ps. Someone's watching me !!
and I'm watching Someone too haha ..

2009-01-28T04:45:00.000-08:00

Without freedom, no one really has a name.

Milton Acorda

I guess I'm nameless for now
Freedom; worth waiting, worth fighting ..

2009-01-27T04:35:00.000-08:00

This guy stole my heart the moment I listened to him

My own true love
My own true love
At last Ive found you
My own true love

No lips but yours
No arms but yours
Will ever lead me
Through Heavens doors

I roamed the Earth
In search of this
I knew Id know you
Know you by your kiss

And by your kiss
You've shown true love
I'm yours forever
My own true love

My own true love ^^

新年快樂 !

2009-01-27T03:50:00.000-08:00

First and foremost,
新年快樂 !
I know it's kindda late but still, 新年快樂 !
and in this 'niu' year, 心想事成 xin xiang shi cheng
I wish all your dreams come true
一帆风顺 yi fan feng shun
I hope everything will be going well too

I'm currently sick
and it's all thanks to the 1 kg of oranges
My voice trails off everything I speak
and I have to lug around the lime green Beautex box
though it's not really that heavy,
the word 'lug' does express how I feel right now
so yes I shall say my ever famous statement,
I feel shitty !
though I only said this once, ahh never mind

ps. I sound like Nanny Fine, seriously .

It's time !

2009-01-25T23:38:00.000-08:00

It's Random Quiz Time !

1. Are you single, taken or crushing?
I'm single and crushing ?

2. Are you happy with your life now?
not exactly, soon I'll be

3. When you meet the right person, do you fall in love with him fast?
I don't rush I guess

4. Have you ever had your heart broken?
No and never will

5. Do you believe in some circumstances where cheating love is acceptable?
Don't ask me about love ! gosh ..

6. Would you take someone back if he cheats on you?
I don't pick up rubbish (:

7. Have you ever talk about marriage with another before?
haha no of course .

8. Do you want children?
not exactly

9. How many?
er, I'm only 14 ?

10. Would you consider adoption?
I'm 14 for goodness sake .

11. If someone likes you right now,
what do you think is the best way to let you know his feelings?
get down to his knees and tell me
then I'll feel like Juliet haha ~
I prefer a direct answer rather than
beating about bushes/trees/other leafy stuff

12. Do you enjoy getting into a relationship?
hahha.. hahaha ??!!

13. Do you believe in love at the first sight?
nope, it's bullshit

14. Are you romantic?
haha .. hahaha ??!!

15. Do you believe you can change someone?
I have power ! I have authority !
* shows camera duty pass *
not really sure
but I believe I can FLY ~~

16. Do you easily give in when you are fighting?
Depends on situation and the people involved, really ..

17. Do you have feelings for someone right now ?
I have feelings , yes I do !
but no, it's not for you ..

'do' and 'you' does rhyme !

18. Do you want him/her to know?
Maybe not I guess

19. Have you ever broke a heart?
I don't think so, I guess maybe ..

20. If one day your best friend falls in love with
the guy you are deeply in love with, whatwould you do?
I don't see myself being deeply in love in the near future

21. Are you missing someone right now?
Maybe ..

ok here's another random quiz !

1. what is your form of saying hello ?
Hey hello ^^ or the simple Hi

2. what do you like to do when you are alone at home ?
Max my speakers and sing a long to it
and jump on my bed too ^^

3. Have you ever kissed someone or been kissed ?
no and no

4. what is the longest time you talked on the phone ?
3 hrs I guess, kindda short though

5. how long will guilty conscience overcome you after you have done anything bad ?
Depends on the situation really
Like Daniyal's birthday present
I had to buy him one on the day I found out
if not I would have felt guilty through out the night
How on Earth would I know it was his birthday ??!!
well it's his fault actually ..

6. what is the most amount of money you have spent ?
can't really remember, threw away all my receipts recently

7. what animal would you like as a pet ?
something fury ?
if you're thinking of __, no .

You've reached the end of this extremely random
Random Quiz Time !

ps. It's random, obviously !

2009-01-24T22:00:00.001-08:00

Could someone please tell me I'm fat or not ?
cause I think I am ..

2009-01-24T21:34:00.000-08:00

I REALLY want to watch The Kite Runner
watched the trailer and it was great
ps. This one's not the official trailer

For you, a thousand times over

Finally Finished

2009-01-24T21:07:00.000-08:00

I've finally finished The Kite Runner by Khaled Hosseini
despite having a flu and sneezing non-stop

Redemption, there's always a way to be good again
God is kind and nothing's too late
Have faith, believe without seeing it but feeling it instead

2009-01-23T21:16:00.000-08:00

Ne me quitte pas
Il faut oublier
Tout peut s'oublier
Qui s'enfuit deja
Oublier le temps
Des malentendus
Et le temps perdu
A savoir comment
Oublier ces heures
Qui tuaient parfois
A coups de pourquoi
Le coeur du bonheure
Ne me quitte pas (4 fois)

Moi je t'offrirai
Des perles du pluie
Venues de pays
Ou il ne pleut pas
Je creuserai la terre
Jusqu'apres ma mort
Pour couvrir ton corps
D'or et de lumiere
Je ferai un domaine
Ou l'amour sera roi
Ou l'amour sera loi
Ou tu seras reine
Ne me quitte pas (4 fois)

Ne me quitte pas
Je t'inventerai
Des mots insensés
Que tu comprendras
Je te parlerai
De ces amants là
Qui ont vu deux fois
Leurs coeurs s'embraser
Je te racont'rai
L'histoire de ce roi
Mort de n'avoir pas
Pu te rencontrer
Ne me quitte pas (4 fois)

On a vu souvent
Rejaillir le feu
De l'ancien volcan
Qu'on croyait trop vieux
Il est paraît-il
Des terres brûlées
Donnant plus de blé
Qu'un meilleur avril
Et quand vient le soir
Pour qu'un ciel flamboie
Le rouge et le noir
Ne s'épousent-ils pas
Ne me quitte pas (4 fois)

Ne me quitte pas
Je ne veux plus pleurer
Je ne veux plus parler
Je me cacherai là
A te regarder
Danser et sourire
Et à t'écouter
Chanter et puis rire
Laisse-moi devenir
L'ombre de ton ombre
L'ombre de ta main
L'ombre de ton chien
Ne me quitte pas (4 fois) 


Here's the translation

Don’t leave me now
We must just forget
All we can forget
All we did till now
Let’s forget the cost
Of the breath we’ve spent
Saying words unmeant
And the times we’ve lost
Hours that must destroy
Never knowing why
Everything must die
At the heart of joy
Don’t leave me now
Don’t leave me now
Don’t leave me now

I’ll bring back to you
The clear pearls of rain
From a distant domain
Where rain never fell
And though I grow old
I’ll keep mining the ground
To deck you around
In sunlight and gold
I’ll build you a desmene
Where love’s everything
Where love is the king
And you are the queen
Don’t leave me now
Don’t leave me now
Don’t leave me now

Don’t leave me now
For you I’ll invent
Words and what they meant
Only you will know
Tales of lovers who
Fell apart and then
Fell in love again
Since their hearts stayed true
There’s a story too
That I can confide
Of that king who died
From not meeting you
Don’t leave me now
Don’t leave me now
Don’t leave me now

And often it’s true
That flames spill anew
From ancient volcanos
We thought were too old
When all’s said and done
Scorched fields of defeat
Could give us more wheat
Than the fine April sun
And when evening is nigh
With flames overhead
The black and the red
Aren’t they joined in the sky?
Don’t leave me now
Don’t leave me now
Don’t leave me now

Don’t leave me now
I will cry no more
I will talk no more
Hide myself somehow
And I’ll see your smile
And I’ll see you dance
And I’ll hear you sing
Hear your laughter ring
Let me be for you
The shadow of your shadow
The shadow of your hand
The dog at your command
Don’t leave me now
Don’t leave me now
Don’t leave me now

I bet you're crying by now
Ne Me Quitte Pas Don't leave me
sung by Jacques Brel

maybe another post.

2009-01-23T06:10:00.000-08:00

A proper post ?

2009-01-22T23:17:00.000-08:00

It's about time I write a proper post
Babat's birthday was on the 21st January
and he didn't bloody told us
ps. yes Babat it's your fault .
I only knew when he blurted it out yesterday
when he was waiting for to finish English and Chem
I felt guilty, of course .
So I dragged Hornezuan to buy him a present
at around 5 ?
So we bought him some puppy plushie in a bucket
a lime green bucket
since it's his favourite colour haha ..
I was tempted to buy the pink one though
The puppy plushie looked like a rabbit though
and then went to MTW to get him a nice wrapping paper
The one with pink white and brown stripes appealed the most to me
then got 2 other wrappers; monkeys , pink teddies with hearts
Then just when we were about to go home
I suddenly wanted a ribbon for it
So rushed to Popular and got the ready made ones
and yes, Ezuan's comments aren't helpful ..

Me : " Do you think the purple one looks nicer ? "
Ezuan : " * makes undecipherable noises * "
Me : * ignores * " Hey, there's a pink one ! "

* pauses as Marissa thinks *

Me : " The pink one or the purple one ? "
Me : " no, no Pink one, no no, purple no pink .. * goes on ? * "
Ezuan : " Can't make up your mind ? "
Me : * grabs the pink ribbon *

Ezuan is a bad shopper haha
Can't blame him though, he's exhausted .
Rushed back home, reached surprisingly early 6 00
took a quick 30 mins shower
and started wrapping
the 1st wrapping was ugly so I wrapped again ..
and finally pasted the ribbon
and yes, I fell asleep
It was a miracle the scissors didn't ____ .
I took 1 bloody hour to wrap it
but it was worth while as I didn't felt guilty after that
and yes, not forgetting again
Happy VERY belated birthday Daniyal !
You're fifteen now so please,
so stop digging your nose in public
Get more hairy but shrink a bit
I can't handle being shorter than you
too what's the word, humiliating .

ps. I boboked at 7 30, didn't online .

2009-01-21T04:26:00.000-08:00

Love
something so sacred yet of no value
something so true yet nothing but a facade of power
the power to control with words and the so called " Love "
something big is going to happen
no, we'll not drop it
and heck, I'm no neutral party .

Love and how your lies revolved around it
We've seen it all .

ps. I told you it's all bullshit (:

2009-01-19T05:30:00.000-08:00

I envy those with faith and direction, really I do .

2009-01-16T06:23:00.000-08:00

I took a nap again
and can't remember what happened
I'm still having the same dream
I want to bobok again .
someday I'll write a proper post

Exhausted and drained .

2009-01-15T02:02:00.000-08:00

I'm really exhausted and drained
I haven't been blogging for a few days now
exhausted, ahhh !
I need a getaway ! and yes, the much needed back rub (:
I want to go to the beach all by myself
but that would be all the way in Sentosa
which is super far .. right ?
and then I would have to spend most of the time traveling
so I really have no idea for my perfect getaway now
If anybody could be so nice to plan one for me ..
* cricket sounds *
fine then .
I guess that's all
I can't really remember what happened today
as I just woke up from a nap
I had a weird dream which I can't really remember now
I just know it was weird
and yes, I'm typing with my eyes half closed
so it takes long to correct typo
and I'm still sleepy
I think I'm going to sleep again.

ps. I wasn't joking about the backrub ^^ .. anyone ?
* cricket sounds * ahh damn it !

ok I'm awake now ..

2009-01-11T06:18:00.000-08:00

smart,mysterious, unexpected
a huge possibility of being surprisingly romantic
extremely quiet
certainly not a coward and I like that
hmm unique ?
and those eyes, there's something about it
ok it's a secret then .
I won't breathe a word of it
maybe it's worth a try again

~~It's better to have loved and lost then not to love at all~~
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gosh what ~~fuck~~ am I saying ?

Last night's dream

2009-01-11T05:14:00.000-08:00

This is for Shah, check if it's right !

This is a very special post
because for the first time
* drum roll *
I'm going to post a picture of myself
It's kindda small but hey, I tried darn hard to smile
took it with my new Logitech web cam (:
which has better resolution then the previous one
which means my picture looks great
which means I looked great in it
which means this only happened thanks to the camera
which means the camera is darn good
I bet the which means are already starting to get onto your nerves
oh well I'm going to post it now
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well maybe you are
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Why do you really need my picture ?
You're gonna play darts with it ?
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I look nice, yes I do (:
that is, if you could see me ..

Someone, please talk to me !

2009-01-09T04:21:00.000-08:00

I've been really busy lately
that's the reason for the one-lined blog posts
So today, since the showcase is O-V-E-R,
I shall blog a proper post
why bother no one reads this anyway

ok, at this very moment as I'm typing this out,
I feel darn bloody unwell
My head feels heavy and hot
I'm worrying about a lot of things currently
Let me start with the upcoming interview
I'm worried the Sec 1s don't know where It Rex is
we did came up with solutions
but I'm still worried as it's not yet done
still worrying ..

so for the weekend I have Eng, HMT and Bio homework
I've been trying a lot of ways to relieve my stress
I even wanted soya bean milk yesterday
so it's true, DEPRESSION
knowing very well that if I drink it I'll most probably puke
I've been wanting ridiculous things lately
yes, how stupid .
After hundreds and thousands ways,
I finally came down to 2

1) walking on the field in front of my house
2) __________________ .
Some of you might laugh at it ..

I want to grow taller !
There's a thing about tall people that fascinates me
They are tall.
er, isn't that obvious Marissa ?
Therefore, I want to be tall myself !
Trying a lot ways I found from the net

ok I shall end my post abruptly here
which is quite abrupt
please excuse me, I don't really know what I'm saying
it's late and I'm dead beat
My bed is calling my name
gosh am I hearing voices ?

ps. Someone, please talk to me !
ok that was random .

2009-01-08T06:11:00.000-08:00

I hope your day didn't sucked like mine (:

2009-01-08T05:40:00.000-08:00

* deleted*
Two hours away from everything .

2009-01-07T05:52:00.000-08:00

I puked my porridge while brushing my teeth
I'm scared to eat now .

2009-01-06T05:57:00.000-08:00

Listening to very human music now ..

2009-01-06T04:14:00.000-08:00

I finally puked , yay .

2009-01-05T06:14:00.000-08:00

I know some of you may not like it
but seriously,

Chopin Waltz Op.64 No.2 !!

it's piano, and I really love the sound it makes
It's soft and melodious
soul capturing ..
so to the some of you who may not like it,
just turn off you speakers for a while ^^

I feel really tired and don't really know why

2009-01-04T04:31:00.000-08:00

getting ready for school tomorrow ^^

cause you are not alone
I'm always there with you
and we'll get lost together ♥

Big Hairy Giant

2009-01-02T22:02:00.000-08:00

I don't really have much to say today
I woke up at 11 and chatted online with a few people
I'm quite exhausted and it's already 2 pm
I guess I should go eat my breakfast now
or brunch whatever you call it

" Sakit hati ( heartache ) is like sakit perut ( stomach ache ) "
wonderful theory you got there haha ..

2009-01-01T23:36:00.000-08:00

Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

" oh this is bullshit ! "

My Itunes !

2009-01-01T22:30:00.000-08:00

My itunes, it's corrupted or something
so I've to use bloody Windows Media Player while I fix it
Have I ever told you I hate IE ?
well, I'm telling you now ^^
Currently listening to The Fray's You Found Me
Try it, it's good !

I reached quite late just now
cause there was no feeder to interchange yet
Suddenly, a 188 appeared * poosh * weird sound effect ?
and there was something wrong with the ez link beep thing
he mumbled something in Chinese and pressed a few buttons
then it was working again !
I looked like a sec 1 , haha seriously .
Forever Young ! er, yah ok
our canteen is called Long Hill
What kind of name is that ? I thought for a moment
then I finally figured out
Bukit in English is Hill
Panjang in English is Long
but shouldn't it be Hill Long ?
Went up to the roof excess, NICE
It's a big space with nothing and no one
nice isn't it ?
I shall end this post abruptly here
The wind is coming

ps. Fatima got a very good picture today
Finally, a successor !

It's true , I flushed them away !

2009-01-01T00:28:00.000-08:00

I spent my first few moments of 2009
in the toilet, showering ..
Last night was great, though I stained my dress quite badly
I smelled of fruit punch all the way through it !
it was hmm.. wild ?
at the same time, a fun gathering
the limbo was kindda crazy though
and the I kissed a girl 5 times encore in a row was mad !

I looked stupid in all of the pictures I could get my hands on
so no way, not posting it !

I have to reach school at 6 30 tomorrow which is quite mad
considering the fact that
I take 45 darn minutes to reach school
and that I live in Jurong, which is darn bloody far
About a girl is filling my head now, it feels good
I hate their voices, saying things they don't have to
It's a good thing About a girl is on vol 40 now ^^
Tomorrow's gonna be busy and yes of course, sweaty !

I'm having a strange craving for Calbee now .

Last day of 2008

2008-12-30T21:47:00.000-08:00

I've been invited to a party !
bidding farewell to 2008 I guess
there's going to be a lot of food and people
the a lot of people part; I don't really like it .
maybe I'll come home early
then I can call Marcus ^^
Today is the day, the last day I'll remember everything that happened this year
For tomorrow, I'll forget them ^^
I opened my 2008 resolutions I wrote on 31 Jan 2007
As I read it, I realized how self-centered I was
all the resolutions were for myself
so I decided to put this in one of my 10 resolutions

I hope the opening of the two integrated resorts,
that will offer a lot of job vacancies,
will help boost our economy thus rescuing us
from the predicted tough time we'll have
in the first 6 months if I'm not wrong,
and for the goods and services tax to miraculously drop
which my ease our burden by a lot and for people
to be more aware of the impact of their actions
to the environment.

*** Hope and wish are very different things .

and I think I'll write a lot next year
and then shred it at the end of the month ..
What will you gain from that, Marissa ? you might wonder
well, here's what I'll gain
Maybe I'll be closer to myself
I know some of you might not get this .
Maybe somehow I could improve my English ?

Corn recommended me a drama, Iljimae
and the lead actor is pretty !
I prefer the theme song without the singer
just the piano ^^ '
yes, I'd love to hear anyone play it live
Corn, play and sing it like the taiwan drama song !

I finished Farenheit 451
it's quite late I guess
did it in a day, which was quite slow as well .
I bet others read it in like 3 hours or so .
The story turned out to be interesting to my surprise
and now I'm doing character study
you know like the one we did with Ms Koh on animal farm
That might help prepare me for the test on the first week ^^
I'm still stuck with maths, bloody maths !
Shit I say , shit !

well, I guess I better go get ready now
though I don't feel like going at all
cause I'm feeling darn miserable suddenly
I feel like crap and yes of course , Happy New Year !
I'd tagged randomly ^^
and may you spend your last day of the year thinking ahead
and not making the mistake of opening your 2008 resolutions envelope !
My party mood's spoiled, darn it !

gosh this has been a hell of a long post !

I had a nightmare last night

2008-12-27T20:54:00.000-08:00

It's quiz time !

ARE YOU ..
Perfect: Nope
Tall: average
In your pajamas: I don't own PJs
Left handed: no, right wished I was left though ..

LAST ..
Friend you saw: Jia Pei, said bye when he got off the bus
Talked to on the phone:
Person to text you: AJ last night on MSN

FAVORITE ..
Number: 97
Color: don't really mind colours
Food: Depends on my mood but I really want walls gelato now .
Place: home toilet

QUESTIONS & ANSWERS

Q: What was the first thing you did this morning when you got up ?
Think about the dream I had
It was .. weird .

Q: Do you have anything bothering you?
My dream last night, don't really like it

Q: What's the last movie you watched in theaters?
Coffin with PK Yueyu and Yimin

Q: Where is the last place you went?
School, I don't go out much
wait, I didn't went out at all

Q. Do you smile a lot?
I do make funny faces at the mirror and laugh at myself

Q: Do you wish upon stars?
wishes don't come true, why bother ?

Q: Are you a friendly person?
Maybe .

Q: Where did you sleep last night?
The middle room

Q: Why did you sleep there?
I got sleepy and dozed off at 12 15

Q: When was the last time you cried?
recently

Q: What was your last thought before going to bed?
I was thinking of getting the same dream I got the previous night
sadly, I didn't .

Q: Rate life as of right now, one being bad, ten being great?
5.01, life does get better (:

Q: What do you hear right now?
People playing poker

Q: Does anything hurt you right now?
yes, my back thinking of seeing the doctor soon

Q: What's your favorite month?
March 23

EMOTIONS ..

Are you missing someone right now ?
somehow I am

Are you single ?
sadly, yes haha

Are you tired ?
yeah, just ate breakfast at 1 15

Are your parents still married ?
erm ya ?

BASICS ..
Real name? Marissa
Age? 14
Eye color? Green I'm wearing contacts right now
Male or female? Female
Single? Stop rubbing it you asshole !
Crushing? hmm.. maybe
Smart? quite dumb
Hair color? black
Sweats or Jeans? shorts .. ?
Phone or Camera? camera for sure
Health freak? quite, never been to a bbq
Righty or Lefty? Right
Smoke or Drink? I do drink root beer and ginger beer a lot

FIRSTS ..
First best friend? (:
First award? Drawing contest in P1 ^^
First enemy? maybe I shall not put it here
First pet? Hamsters when I was 2 or 3
First vacation? I can't really remember .

CURRENTLY ..
Eating? nothing
Drinking? not at the moment
Listening to? Gives you hell - All American Rejects
Plans for tomorrow? School and Lot 1
Waiting for?

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE GENDER ?
Lips or eyes? eyes ^^
shorter or taller? darn bloody tall (:
Romantic or spontaneous? maybe both would be good ..
Sensitive or loud? I prefer a good balance of both
Hook-up or in a relationship? I don't really get this ..

HAVE YOU EVER ..
Drank hard drinks? I drink soft drinks only ^^
Lost glasses/contacts? once .
Ran away from home? nope
Broken someone's heart? Nah, nope don't think so ^^
Been arrested? erm no ..

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY

Do you like someone?
maybe ..

Are you seriously happy with where you are in life?
not even one bit

2008-12-26T23:37:00.000-08:00

I dreamt of Fahry last night
and smiled all the way through my sleep
yes I woke up smiling -.-
08's ending real soon so I'm coming up with a list of 08 things (:

The First One,
08 malay words I can't live without
wooh that's a lot !
01 Bobok means sleep
02 Sayang means love
03 Makan means eat
05 Tunggu means wait
07 Sedap means delicious
08 Can't really think at this moment ..

The whole earth knows what Bobok means, erm right ?
will updatete my list soon I suppose ^^
Adios xD !
wait, did I tell you I dreamt of Fahry last night ?
He was smiling at me !

He was wearing the same shirt but he smiled at me !
ps. I'm falling in love with the character but not the actor

Here's another shot of him (:
If only I could clone that character
If only I could meet someone exactly like him

wait, I can't .

It's Boxing day

2008-12-26T04:01:00.000-08:00

Farting, the awkward moment for most of us
well maybe all of us
there's nothing to be embarrassed actually
People fart and even post them on You tube
and I'm dying to have someone to do
the Numa Numa dance for me !

2008-12-25T00:16:00.000-08:00

Been listening to Hey There Delilah recently
It's outdated to most but to, it's still fresh (:
These days tomorrows becomes yesterdays too soon
Each day's just zooming past me
now I understand what is meant by ' Time waits for no man '
Time does show no mercy
While surfing through the net, I stumbled upon this magnificent place
no it's not as far as my dream destination Italy, it's nearer
If you're guessing Borobudur Temple, yup you're right .

Photographed by Dean Conger of National Geographic
Behind a great picture, there is always a great photographer

National Geographic makes up quite a big part of my life
I watch National Geographic, Nat Geo wild
and Nat Geo Adventure almost everyday
I don't mind watching an encore telecast of Somewhere in China
because it's just great/wonderful/awesome/amazing .
I just love watching Jeff and Peter Hutchens over and over again ^^
I read the National Geographic magazine wherever and whenever I can
On conclusion, National Geographic successfully filled up a big hole in my head

and lastly,
The man with a gift that can melt all sadness in the world

2008-12-23T03:52:00.000-08:00

and this .

2008-12-23T03:16:00.000-08:00

I love then ending .
Long live Bublé !

2008-12-22T04:14:00.000-08:00

Things are starting to get better
But still, I'm living in apathy
Waiting for everyday just to pass
I finally realized that my soul is empty
I don't have anything to look foward to
I only see me in every thought I have
Self centered without even realizing it
Empty without a blank space
Lonely and feeling it
I can't deny that this is not the person I want myself to become
but everything just happened so quickly
with the year coming to an end , I finally realized I wasted it
I might or might not have more years to come
God knows , I could die tomorrow if my time is up
Everything is fated, I can't change it
But I know for sure what happened this year wasn't of fate
It was of choices, wrong choices .
Living full of regrets everyday is just not worth to me
I just forget them or at least try to
someday everything will just vanish
just like letter A on my keyboard, I could hardly see it .
How I envy it .